beginning.

and i'm beginning with the method.

the way it happened.

the words are slowly flowing out of me.

i think i need to just write and be okay with whatever i write now.

rather than beat myself up for not being "good enough".

because i don't even know what "good enough" looks like anymore.

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and this weekend is Pride.

i will take my camcorder everywhere i go.

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Pride feels different to me this year than any other year.

i think this project has a lot to do with that difference.

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and tomorrow i have a meeting with Stephen. to go over my work to date.

it's been a long time since we last met.

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back to method.

and i must forget about "good enough"...

i must engage with the keys, the words and the experience.

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i must.